(f) art
If tearing wet bloody chunks from your soul and
Throwing the lumpy meat into the Public
Square brings you no contentment then you are no
artist – you are dead.
(f) art
If tearing wet bloody chunks from your soul and
Throwing the lumpy meat into the Public
Square brings you no contentment then you are no
artist – you are dead.
It was an isolated incident
There is no pattern of any kind here
Woven in the fabric of everything.
–
Tortured and murdered for simply
But don’t worry at all – I present
It was an isolated incident.
–
Caved in with a baseball bat is nothing
These things happen; the single event
Woven in the fabric of everything.
–
Brown, Mcbride, Garner attacked and dying.
Diallo, Dorismund, Zongo. Don’t dissent
It was an isolated incident.
–
Nine black people dead at white hands killing
That almost stopped it’s trigger but didn’t
Woven in the fabric of everything.
–
The legacy of horror is clinging
To that cacophonous endless lament;
“It was an isolated incident.”,
Woven in the fabric of everything.
Why not write at least one sentence?
Go on, it can’t hurt can it?
We both know that you’re afraid that it will happen.
Don’t die with so many unfinished stories.
Just try and finish one, one sentence.
Use that cold clawing fear in your stomach to drive you on.
Don’t have another drink
Just yet.
A is for Anhedonia
B is for Boredom
C is for Collapse
D is for Doldrum
E is for Energy
F is for Fear
G is for Guilt
H is for Happiness
I is for Indecision
J is for Jump
K is for Knowledge
L is for Loss
M is for Morbid
N is for Nothing
O is for Other
P is for Paranoia
Q is for Quit
R is for Razor
S is for Stranger
T is for Terrors
U is for Undulating
V is for Violence
X is for X
Y is for Youth
Z is for Zero
All of it.
Every last damned drop.
Waiting
Alone on the platform
Heavy lidded
After a day of good work.
Soon she will be sitting
On the train,
And then at home
With Loved Ones.
There once was a troll
That lived on a hill
It didn’t like poetry
So when it heard
I was writing a poem
About it’s misadventures
It told me
To go fuck myself.
End of the day
The music squeezes
Happiness out
Resonating beyond now.
I am normal.
I am kind,
Don’t see colour
Or ever find
The police treat me bad.
They are kind.
No special treatment
I once got fined
For driving drunk
They didn’t mind.
Sent me on my way
So I’m inclined
To love those cops
Who didn’t grind
My bones to paste
Or shoot me in my exposed back
Or kill me for talking back
Or cuff me for speaking out
Or night stuck me for a single shout
That war is for the battlefield
And not for those with badge and shield
Who hate the poor they guard all night
When really if they knew what’s right
They’d turn their eyes from the pitch
They’d join the horde and eat the rich.
I wake up every morning with a smile.
Not letting them sleep is okay with me.
Torture kept our country safe, for a while.
—
These are terrorists, mostly, they are vile
So we can treat them as we wish, you see?
I wake up every morning with a smile.
—
Stress positions were a reasonable style
Of persuasion, not unlike yoga, see?
Torture kept our country safe, for a while.
—
There was no need to offer them a trial
If they were innocent then they’d be free.
I wake up every morning with a smile
—
Yes, rectal feeding was very worthwhile.
There was no real damage, if you ask me.
I wake up every morning with a smile.
Torture kept our country safe, for a while.
Palm prints dusted on a dark cavern wall
Tiny stencilled hands forgotten for years.
Large shiny missiles and thuggish bombs fall
Leaders wipe away expedient tears
Until cameras turn their dead lidless eyes
To the next shiny seratonin hit.
Seizures shadowed by paperwork towers
As crowds stumble toward the glowing pit
Of welcoming screams that steams a greeting
To the exhausted the hopeless the doomed.
Nearby blank faced operatives meeting
For one last time before straightening ties
Join the lines of misery add their cries
Whether
Friend or
Bot or
Self-help guru or
Scam artist.
I love you all.
I
Love.
You.
All.
Can you follow someone without moving?
We are all
Couch Stalking.
Couch
Stalkers.
I posted this before but it’s Halloween so I thought the world was ready to re-experience the horror….
Oh Dripping maw of meaty red
Do not look in that cave of dread
We Ope’d the Fruit
And so it bled.
Oh Dreaded Fruit of Rotten Red.
Sleep with the light on tonight…
Mwahahahahahahaha. etc.
I never like to explain poems but here I am explaining a poem.
I was irritated, this morning, as with most mornings, at what Twitter had vomited out to the world after the announcement of the new Miss USA contest. Now I am not particular fan nor enemy of the Miss USA competition. It is a particularly American form of demeaning women by making them bark facts and do tricks but everyone enters into it with as much of a freewill as any one can ever enter into anything and it is, even though oppressive in the subtle ways that our patriarchy oppresses all women, not the worst thing that a woman can, in this day and age, experience. I am not a woman so I cannot say this for sure but that is the basis upon which I have feelings regarding the Miss USA competition. From Twitter there came various hateful comments regarding the Indian American winner. They are widely available on the internet. I shall not repeat them here. So in response to a comment made by a friend about how awful this was I appropriated a line from The New Colossus by Emma Lazarus and adapted it for my needs. It is, I believe, the most famous of all the lines and is rendered below:
“Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.”
Later, as I pondered my changed version I decided to change the whole poem to reflect my views, at the very present moment on social media. The irony of me transmitting this through social media is not lost on me. What can one say other than that I am a hippocrit. So be it – I find myself guilty as charged.
So here, without further ado, and a lengthy introduction which does not deserve my brutalisation, or your time, I present you with An Apology, in Advance, to the Memory of Emma Lazarus:
Not like the eyeless spawn of silicate shame,
With writhing limbs lumbering from gland to gland;
Here at our broken toothed, fiery gates shall stand
A soiled beacon with a stump, whose flame
Is the searing lie, and it’s name
Moloch’s Minion. From it’s bloodied-hand
Burns world-wide fury; her wild sockets command
The air-thick with rage that prejudices frame.
“Keep, ancient tomes, your words!” cries she
With silent lips. “Give me your racist, your sexist,
Your homophobic masses yearning to speak hate,
The wretched moral refuse of your inner world.
Send these, the bankrupt, lunatics to me,
I lift my stump beside the flaming maw!”
So National Poetry Writing Month is over and I think I only actually wrote one poem.
I did read all of these poems though.
I don’t expect anyone to want to listen to all of them at once but here they all are, just in case:
Enjoy.
Poetry Month Day 23:
Text HERE.
Remember the victims As they crossed the line. Do not forget the victims. - The happy childish faces Waving for their parents. Remember the victims - Who walked past exploding Cars and were spread like paste. Do not forget the victims - As they crossed the line Exhausted and triumphant. Remember the victims - Who herded their sheep Unaware of the hovering eye. Do not forget the victims - Who sat in the classroom Hands thick with paint. Remember the victims - Sluicing on the ground - Incredulous as they evaporate. Do not forget the Victims. Remember The Victims.
I hear it’s Poetry Month so, because I have nothing better to do, I’m going to add a scratchy recording every day of a poem that I have written.
Here is the first one.
It is mercifully short.
Text HERE.
I want to know how far we have to run
Before we reach that mountain top of Myth.
What jungles, deserts must be overcome?
What trials to come to reach that monolith?
There must be ways to simplify the task
To smooth the path and ease the climb to it.
I feel, within, my lips upon the cask
Of ancient scribes who dwell within the pit.
My knot-tight hand grips tightly to the pen,
I sit awake and stare down at the page.
I crease my brow and summon inner zen
Then scratch across the pulpy sheet with rage.
To balance both on bloodied tightrope here,
The painful task of lonely mountain seer.
1.
Summer sky thick with clotted clouds
As the drip down sweat curves along the valley
Unfolding into the yielding moment of a swollen harvest.
Sluggish slowing streams slip together in sweet embrace.
Roiling in tumbling turbulence they slice hard rocks
Opening thunderous wounds in thick granite.
2.
With welling waters flowing through thick granite
Bursting forth in tremendous steaming clouds
Overlapping skin of variegated ancient rocks
With piston powered pluvial spears gouge the valley
Singing with cacophonous choral delight. Embrace
Wholly the driven plunge into the wholesome harvest.
3.
Welcome then, with open arms, the shrinkwrapped harvest
Of their back-breaking labour. Render Endless your granite
Pity unto every squat leathered servant that Freedom fails to embrace.
Do not think on the gouging and scraping they endure as clouds
Overhead scudding by twist out their last moisture on your produce in their valley;
In the valley below the clouds where your servants are broken on hard rocks.
4.
Watch and smile in glazed indolence as the foundation of your happiness rocks
Under the slowly increasing inevitable momentum of the seeds of your harvest.
The hammering and the murmuring bubble up like milk through granite
Until you can no longer remember the whispering wind of the valley.
Until you can no longer remember the relief brought by the clouds.
Until you can no longer remember the feeling of that once complacent embrace.
5.
Engage with the torture wrought with the gnawing certainty that you did it. Embrace
The rotten truth that you are a leech, that we are engorged on others. Let the rocks
Of this reality crush you, pound you to dust, smash your bones into clouds.
It’s okay, isn’t it, that every little button pressed is another reckless harvest
Of people never acknowledged as people? It is okay; even carvings on granite
Eventually erode. Your transgression will evaporate. Even the valley
6.
Will wear away. Just the upthrust bones of buildings strewn over the desolate valley.
Yet in dotted patches – here and there; sprouting shoots. Embrace
Now the hope that comes after terrible failure. Cease your easy weakness. Be granite
In the face of what you have done and rebuild, regrow, rebirth even as the rocks
Supple and slow, stretch their muscles, one epoch at a time, awaiting their harvest.
Don’t dismiss the possibility that happiness, not just pain, can come with the clouds.
7.
Roiling in tumbling turbulence they slice hard rocks
Unfolding into the yielding moment of a swollen harvest.
Summer sky; thick with clotted clouds.
There is a restaurant over yonder On top of that lonely old hill. It is owned by a ragged vagabond Who the System could not kill. The moment he could wander He left his employer's estate He wandered up the pathway He wandered out the gate. The first time the system attacked him, He was standing by a tree. The System cut that tree down And nearly squashed him like a flea. Then he was minding his own business Right by a railroad track. The System saw him sitting there And, without warning, launched a sneak attack. But his reflexes were like lightning Honed from years of being free. So he turned that attack back at them And the System let him be. But the System it remembered It knew how to hold a grudge And when that man opened his restaurant, The system hired a judge. The judge he came a'calling But the vagabond knew the score. He won that judge with pie and wine And showed the System the open door. Now the vagabond is older He lies awake at night He sleeps with one eye open Waiting for the System to strike. So take a lesson from the vagabond If you want to be truly free The System will try to own you, It will never let you be. And yet he lived his life The way that he saw fit. When the System came a'calling. He never gave way to it.
The key is sitting under the small clock.
It is not the key I am looking for.
The key I need unseals the heavy lock
That keeps shut that ancient massive door
Of the room that I left long, long ago.
I can’t remember what is behind it.
Whether bad, good or neutral I don’t know.
Yes, I am puzzled, yet I must submit
To whatever may pour forth
Into whoever it is I am now.
Without this ability of rebirth
I won’t be able to ride the Great Scow.
The key is sitting under the small clock
But it’s not the key to unseal that lock.
Writing a poem,
Like taking
A shit,
Should be
An intensely
Private affair.
Too many cooks spoil the broth
Many hands make light work
Many hands make light broth
Too many hands spoil work
Too many cooks spoil many hands
Spoiled broth makes light work
Too many hands light the broth
Many cooks spoil work
This and That. The rain fell in haunted lines, Straight separations between this and that. Lonely neon screens glowed in empty toy strewn rooms; Witnesses to this and that. Cattled commuters wedged in tight On pilgrimage to this and that. A single figure ran round the track Yearning quietly for this and that. Stale coffee poured in styrofoam Is brief respite from this and that. From out the gloom a clot of light In recompense for this and that.
Careful what you wish for
Because it might come true.
Beware of what you hope for
It might leave you feeling blue.
Careful what you wish for
Because nothing comes without a price.
Beware of what you hope for
On the roll of the Dice.
Careful what you wish for
With your final breath
Beware of what you hope for
Because a mystery follows Death.
I woke up today and I thought of you.
The sheets were cold and the sky was full of snow.
I dressed but I could not find my left shoe.
If you were here it would not be lost now.
Memories of slow dancing by the lake
Feel fleeting like the sleet I see outside.
I try to hold onto them but the wake
Of the slow boat of Time seems to divide
You from I. Me from We. Myself alone,
Shuffling in a small circle of distress,
Dancing a solo waltz as the cold dawn
Shudders the marrow from my bones. No less
Than a flake on my nose snaps me awake.
You are gone forever – my love. My ache.
Balding trees lace the grey sky of Fall.
Soft wet earth clods on meandering shoes.
Tiny feet stumble after a tumbling ball
Over moss caped rock, past thick green spruce.
Soft wet earth clods on meandering shoes
Running further unaware unafraid
Over moss caped rock, past thick green spruce.
The melody of the dimming day frayed.
Running further unaware unafraid
Through briar and bush, down slip and slide
The Melody of the dimming day frayed
By the Sun’s light; a weakened washed out tide.
Through briar and bush, down slip and slide
To find the ball caked in mulch, a spherical ghost
By the Sun’s light; a weakened washed out tide
Pulling back from the grove leaving her lost.
To find the ball caked in mulch, a spherical ghost
Glowing weakly with a fallen moonish pall
Pulling back from the grove leaving her lost.
Balding trees lace the grey sky of Fall.
I remember
The smell of gas cut grass on a blue summer day.
Trampoling to safety from dog teeth.
Collecting brown cracked leaves with my small niece.
Dancing ‘til the Sun bled through the night sky.
Bug plagues of DC
A crunching carpet on the grey sidewalk
The DC Sniper
Who then killed most victims in Maryland.
DC Sniper had
A better scan than
Maryland Killer.
We had icicle bones
Wept petroleum tears
Our tune – trembling trombones
Our skin – branded like steers.
Brains cudgelled with learning
Scoop Gravelled overfill
Our defiance – threaded
Nesting walls dry twigs spill
Ing over Sunrise fat
And Syrup gold. Blind kids
Stumble through each thick wet
Step, mewling for eye lids.
Popcorn teeth, fluffy like
Wind. Entertaining chew
Toy made of puppet string
Slices through everything.
The hurried ghosts of muddied memory
Appear, without appeal, from ink black blots.
Coalescing in their frozen trajectory
They succumb to untenable thoughts.
Appear, without appeal, from ink black blots
To be smeared in the jagged night air.
They succumb to untenable thoughts,
Fighting to be freed from the suspended snare.
To be smeared in the jagged night air
With whiskered whispering relentless flow,
Fighting to be freed from the suspended snare,
Stubborn in their refusal to slow.
With whiskered whispering relentless flow,
They rage, crack, tear, rail, bellow yet more
Stubborn in their refusal to slow.
No quietly waiting at the shore.
They rage, crack, tear, rail, bellow yet more,
One more time. The Final Treachery.
No quietly waiting at the shore.
The hurried ghosts of muddied memory.
And our space is all used up.
Memory will lie in Tatters
Just like an old, used, paper cup.
Outside will be a blasted heath.
Inside will be a soothing cell.
Yet outside will offer freedom
Inside will be a uterine Hell.
No choice will be the better
No thing either simple or clear
Yet Life is full of choices.
Don’t be afraid of Fear.
Dropping
Sack
As I look on
Unconcerned?
I am disinterested
Too distant
To be real
To far off
To be happening
To abstract
To be humanized.
A Flailing marionette
With thoughts and dreams and
With each
Slip and slide and bone-
Jarring crack and
Will now be mourned
No doubt.
Loose shale
Or
A push perhaps from
An unseen hand
Of a seeming friend.
It could be in my head
Wafted
Cries of pain
Pleading with God
Weeping
Begging
Forgiveness.
It could be in my head.
The bus stop is empty
The wind ruffles my hair
I push it from my eyes.
I continue to stare.
Gravity is God to this hapless thing.
Fate has decided to finally bring
This one to the end of its pilgrimage
As I smoke this cigarette from my cage
Of disinterest.
It is such a clean summer’s day
Did they brush their teeth this morning?
Did they put on odd socks?
Is their underwear clean?
What was their final meal –
A hearty breakfast
Or an energy bar from their pack?
Who was their final hug?
Is Approaching Death
Peace or
Mind-numbing terror?
The bus arrives.
I look again
But it has gone.
My cigarette
Burns out.
I tell no one what I saw
It doesn’t make the papers.
Life continues.
Distant mountains.
Search the jagged seam where sky meets rocky scar
For another tumbling Angel.
I am waiting for a bus.
I hear
Echoing
Scribble-scrabble
Rock fall.
The Irregular Parabola
Distant.
Leaping,
Bounding
Down, ever downward Leaping Rag-Doll.
A Million innocuous moments
Shatter
The lives
Of People,
Strangers to me, not present to see.
It gains Control momentarily
Then
Arcing
Crashing
Flipping.
Taking to the air, then meeting scree.
Part of the mountain.
Part of its neighbour
Sky.
I MISTILY remember my very first
Plunge. Wrapped close in vodka’s sweet, warm blanket
I stumbled with my giggling Aphrodite.
She was, to me, the entirely beaut-
Iful, but so drunk was I, a moist fruit
–
With cored-nook, more than Heaven (even bru-
Ised) would have been. But her eager wet-
Ness, warmed with woman’s flush, began that night
Of febrile fumblings, synthetic starts and
The weakened will of Desire’s wanton wand.
–
At last, with volcanic idleness, Influ-
Enced by dawn’s golden glimmer, dormant yet
No longer. Life’s spray captured in her tight-
Ness. My vigorous fountain pooled then, in
Nature’s flawless chalice. Then sheath to bin.
IMPERFECTIONS yet superior still
To Circe’s substance. An empty fickle
Heart yet more intense still than scorching, brill-
Iant Sol, scalding, past Time’s sickle,
–
My withered shuck; shackled by Memory’s
Insidious, insipid influence.
With a late lapping longing I barely
Breathe without recalling still her sens-
–
Ual soul. I seek oblivion from
This ever flowering, chaotic obses-
Sion. No respite can I detect; no brom-
Ide seclusion from this one weakness.
I am much my own emotion’s victim.
Its smooth sheened sphere helplessly hangs, hover-
Ing expectantly, waiting for some glim-
Mering error. Some glimpsed lapse to take her
Inevitable vengeance for my im-
Possible failing. Sleep seems much better.
Smoothly blue.
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The air is full of many things
That make my body thrive
Oxygen and Nitrogen
Both keep me very much alive.
–
Of all the food that I can eat
Your body is my favourite treat.
There was a little mouse
Who had a little house.
He had a little wife
And had a little strife.
House Mouse Wife Strife.
One tiny unravelling thread
And now that wife is dead.
THE WORDS melted wetly together
Slickly sliding across the page.
I was dubious; unsure whether
I could, should, would control my rage.
–
Confined to this fibrous vehicle
The seeping slowed gracefully like
Honeyed thought. Soothed by the treacle
Glow of newly found delight.
–
Then it’s liquid limitations
Congeal, curdle; all thickened.
Each wet syllable, parched then, shines
With a light, cloyingly hardened.
Oh now help me dear Lord,
What am I gonna do?
I’m so very drunk-tired,
Gotta hole in-ma left shoe.
*
Been wanderin’ since…
Been wanderin’ since…
Been wanderin’ since…
Since you threw me out,
Out of your heart,
Your barbed-wire heart.
*
Temples pulsate with off-
Ended remorse. Whiskey
Guilt’s a-flowin’ and I’m gettin’ me a cough.
Think I’m gonna rest down under that ragged tree;
*
It’s old and twisted, cracked and rough,
Just like me.
I lean back on some creaking bough,
Sinking then into dreams free-
Dom:
*
While the Cocytus flows into Acher-
On’s course; Interlaced in abhorrent em-
Brace, dithered along their fractious borders.
*
Nothing proven remains true.
Time’s initial casu-
Alty, grasping, hopeless love.
*
In her was contained all perfection.
There’s no doubt, she gave me an erection.
MANIC depression,
Anarchic aggression;
Deep-felt obsession:
Meandering digression,
(Auto-suppression)
Nullified oppression.
*
When the sky, for brief moments, stops.
Leaves no longer rustle as, briefly
Everything ceases. Drops
Of molten reality, unceasingly serene,
Drip, in shimmering uncertainty,
Sluggishly down like some surreal stream.
*
He drinks in that empty moment.
Savouring it as some trans-
Ient truth he knows must melt. Penitent
Yet, despite the gloating ignorance
Of the Hollow Ones, with their tidy, superfluous
Charm. That icicle spear glance
*
Shatters the moon-pool calm,
Like dreams twisting the empty ill-
Usions of a drenched emerald balm.
Now, creaking Time, casually recommence
In your random, untidy precision, kill-
Ing with every division all sense.
I began this to occupy some space.
Now I see that I have made an error
In judgement. There won’t be five lines but brace
Yourself for less than that; merely these four.
What is it?
Do you know?
Can I ask you?
Will you go?
–
I see you,
Standing there.
What do you want?
I don’t care.
–
This is me,
retreating soon.
You can stay; please
Leave the Moon.
Speeding like a freight train,
Running from the great pain,
Ending with a jarring strain,
On Time’s last sand grain.
–
Sticking to the path,
Sticking to the path,
Sticking to the pitch-black path
Of His soul.
–
Tearing at the last Fiend
As the Devil’s scream
Echoes…
–
As it echoes…
As it echoes…
As it echoes…
As He echoes
–
In my head, in my mind
Searching for a freedom;
A freedom I can’t find.
Semolina sperm boy eating
A dated doughnut porn ring.
Do you cry in your acid tears
Bitch child? Whip-crack shifting gears
Accelerates the corporate worm
To a feverish wet-squirm.
“I live between the cracks of a mountain’s
Soul”, The old man said. His great time-carved arms
Stretched in knotted leather strength; his skin, tan
With Nature’s bruising intensity. Charms
Hung from his gnarled neck in casual
Superstition, shaking with his calm drawl.
“I tread the blanketed paths of your long
Forgotten past” he continued. “I seep
With the Memory’s flow from the Lost Song.”
I left Old Man Bone-bag, for he was mad.
…Creeping septic: acid bath
on a first [time] dive… to the end(?)
Of a (hermetic happiness) hearth
That cannot succour… the rend-
Ing real [dragging insanity]… garnered from… the crazy. Pointless
Whimpering of; … God’s worst guess…
She’s Weeping in a piercing hopeless pain
At smiling, sharp boned anorexics cut-
Ting the air with their razor-edge framework.
A treacle leaking wound smears the dark drain
With slick wickedness as you stretch idly. But
For her crouching apathy she would leave lurk-
Ing for a fleshy existence; without this strain.
As it is she remains here, strut-
Ting like a toxic, bobbing cork.
Hear me knocking at the door
Soft shoed footfalls on the floor
Blinding angels distant seen
The sun, through clouds, spears out between.
A diver without an aqualung,
A paedophile without the young.
A camel with no hump,
A boxer with no thump.
A clown without any fun,
An American without a gun.
Strawberries without cream,
The BFG without a dream.
Communism without Marx,
An underwater adventure without sharks.
Christianity without the philosophy of Greeks,
The Welsh stereotype without leeks.
A monk without a cowl,
An archaeologist without a trowel.
A Catholic without the guilt,
A Scotsman without his kilt.
A gun without a bullet,
An 80’s pop star without a mullet.
Sex without any sweat,
A sick animal without a vet.
Santa without a reindeer,
A pervert without a leer.
A war without deaths,
A tramp without meths.
The Psyche without the Self
A ninja without stealth.
A widow without a shroud,
A mushroom without a cloud.
Four horsemen without an apocalypse,
The Queen Mother without broken hips.
Jack without Daniel,
An aristocrat without a spaniel.
Hercules without tasks,
Balls without masques.
The police without crime,
Coleridge without a Rime.
Muslims without jihad,
Addicts without rehab.
Gaffers without grips,
Fish without chips.
Roman Emperors without insanity,
Fair without the Vanity.
Haunting without a ghost,
Sunday without a roast.
Christmas with no suicide,
A playground without a slide.
Meals with no eating,
The Olympics with no cheating.
Pull without a Force,
Death without a horse.
A storm without the rain,
Fisting without any pain.
Silence without peace,
Pain without release.
An Italian without a scooter,
A six-gun without a shooter.
Depression minus the manic,
Start of the century without the Titanic.
A sniffer without glue,
Is like me without you.
A foot without a shoe,
Is like me without you.
Caged animals without a zoo,
Is like me without you.
In thoughts lowly ditch
I cower and moan.
As hope glides on by
I tremble and groan.
A pocket of Hope
Holds me awhile
Then bursts it’s own bub-
Ble to continue my Trial.
The swan hiss echoed.
The dead eyes burrowed.
The thick river flowed.
The empty boat rocked
For numberless lonely days.
The subtle noise of
A kangaroo exploding
In the twilight heat.
Creamed hardness of tof-
Fee, desperately kneading
The supple dough, with each criminal beat.
Prodding dreamily at the space under
My chin. The space where the shotgun would fit
Snugly in. Thoughts that vaguely meander
As I rest under this gnarled tree’s bough. It
–
Seems that it would be no trouble at all
If I was to fall from this place and rest-
Lessly crawl on through. I just need to call
On that one moment’s decision; a guest
–
In no time of neck-snapping Death who yet,
As my host, ushers me beyond.
What remains; a whip lashed marionette,
Shattered and twitching, that will not respond.
A moist fuck
In the temple of taboo.
Siamese duck
Made into stew.
–
Suck drenched wet cunt
As, after dinner, grandparents
Ruttingly grunt
In their political tents.
Frying pan clam-shut cat
Drives me, distancing future from that
Future I planned on my vernal mat.
–
Torpor conquers my feverish terror
In a rigid battle to close the door.
The leaves are bronzing over, as umber
Shafts of the Autumn’s sun, tent-
like, shade folly’s of a forced mortal year.
–
Of life’s rich liquor; mulched rot, a blotched smear
On her flawed, lawless cycle of some transient
Phase of decay. A shining veneer
–
On a crafted, sharply piercing, dream spear.
Grinding to the obsequious pause; lanced
Through Nature’s grim drab soul; an empty tear
–
From her nascent eyes drench, with a clear
Banality, the children of a spent
Future with a haggard, wasted fear.
Drifting in the terrible scream
Of a trembling explosion. Neat
Victims seeming to shimmer in the melting heat
Before thudding crisply dead as in some padded dream.
–
Water’s pure rainbow sucked dry into steam
At the elemental border. Manufactured order, Great
Like an old War, its fire squandered from the grate,
Fractures as Nature’s chaotic unfettered seam
–
Is mined in a panoply of rising octaves.
Life craves for it’s own empty, forced continuance
With every dirt soaked breath a horrid struggle
–
Until that essential calm meets and greets us to our graves.
A tidy randomness that not even the web of Science
Can stave off. Just ensure the space in-between isn’t dull.
She is standing before me in
Some wretched sharp-boned pose. Dreams shift-
Ing light pierces translucent thin,
shrink-wrapped skin. Her glorious grin
–
Dispossessed by fraught, frightened eyes.
Now, with thoughts obsessions first
Caress, each part of me that dies
Sees another path; the less cursed.
–
Stumbling in my own dark, bleak cor-
Ridors I fiercely hunt in love’s slow,
Impotent style after hope or
Hope’s trailing, tragic shadow.
He unfolded, casually, off the floor.
She had entered shiftily, through the door.
They had planned to walk along the wide shore
Forever afternoon, maybe even more.
I don’t know if we can be friends anymore, I said.
Oh, why is that? She said.
Well there’s a problem, I said.
And what is that? She said.
I love you, I said.
Oh, she said.
Oh, I said.
Oh, she said,
Again.
I said oh again, too.
We had both said oh twice.
I have ruined our friendship, I said.
No you haven’t, she said.
Yes I have, I said.
I don’t think you have, she said.
Oh? I said
Do you love me? I said.
Does it matter? she said.
It might be quite important, I said.
Do you want to know now? She said.
If you wouldn’t mind, I said.
I have to go, she said.
Oh, I said.
I took that as a no, I said.
Oh, she said.
I just don’t…, she said.
Are you going to go? I said.
She didn’t say
And then turned and walked away.
They are all standing silently –
Neon Pink.
Last drink from the bottle
As the wind whips them in a lazy frenzy.
The Zoo emptying
Out
After a quiet Fall afternoon.